My teacher didn't end up approving my blog for class. I guess it was too much trouble... Oh well. I'll just have to do it the old fashioned way!
So, things have been pretty good lately. School is crazy stressful, but that is to be expected. I just learned how to do a bunch of fancy data analysis on SPSS, and that makes me feel super smart! I got my first 2 real cases at my practicum site, so I will actually be able to practice doing individual therapy! That is very exciting for me because last week I was feeling a bit out of sorts in comparison with the rest of my class.
Unfortunately, not everything is as good as my professional life. Then again, nothing ever is... Last week my brother asked me for a favor which I could not accommodate. Now he is not speaking to me. I think other siblings must go through this stuff all the time, but my brother and I have not gone this long without speaking in almost 10 years; not since his accident. Now, because I couldn't do this one thing for him, he is punishing me. Now there's one more man to add to the list of men in my life whose relationships with me are clearly conditional. I just never thought it would be him...
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
What I Did on My Summer Vacation
Hello fellow bloggers! And by that I mean Michele, because I think she's the only one who reads this. :) As summer draws to a close, I was just reflecting on the past few months. Overall, it has been kind of a slow summer. No vacations, other than the trip to Iowa. No summer flings. Nothin'. Maybe that's ok. Maybe it's just what I needed.
There was some more baby-mama-drama from K and his soon-to-be-ex-wife, so I ended it. I told him to call me when he was done playing games. Needless to say, I haven't really heard from him since then. One interesting point about this... When I ended it with him, I told him that I deserved better, that I deserved to be with someone who was willing to fight for me and who would be there for me. Although I may have felt this many times before in my life, this is the first time I have ever said it out loud. Yeah me!!
Also on the relationship front, I never finished reading Bitches, but I will someday. After having some time to reflect on this part of my summer, I stick with my initial reaction to these types of books - they're toxic. The most tumultuous part of my summer was after I got back from Iowa when all that drama was going on, I was reading that book, and spending tons of time with one of my girlfriends who lives by those types of books. As soon as I put the book away and started listening to my gut again, the drama subsided. And recently, when it reared its ugly head again, I didn't play into it, I cut it off. Done. Those books teach women rules, and then they get so involved in what they think they should be doing or saying or feeling, that they forget to listen to themselves and how they actually feel. A more helpful relationship book would involve teaching women skills to learn how to listen to their own instincts, not the rules according to Dr. Laura. Maybe I should write that... Yeah right, in my "spare" time.
As some of you may notice, and again, by that I mean Michele, I started a separate blog for my Ethics class. Who knows, it may turn out to be more interesting than this one!
xoxo
♥
There was some more baby-mama-drama from K and his soon-to-be-ex-wife, so I ended it. I told him to call me when he was done playing games. Needless to say, I haven't really heard from him since then. One interesting point about this... When I ended it with him, I told him that I deserved better, that I deserved to be with someone who was willing to fight for me and who would be there for me. Although I may have felt this many times before in my life, this is the first time I have ever said it out loud. Yeah me!!
Also on the relationship front, I never finished reading Bitches, but I will someday. After having some time to reflect on this part of my summer, I stick with my initial reaction to these types of books - they're toxic. The most tumultuous part of my summer was after I got back from Iowa when all that drama was going on, I was reading that book, and spending tons of time with one of my girlfriends who lives by those types of books. As soon as I put the book away and started listening to my gut again, the drama subsided. And recently, when it reared its ugly head again, I didn't play into it, I cut it off. Done. Those books teach women rules, and then they get so involved in what they think they should be doing or saying or feeling, that they forget to listen to themselves and how they actually feel. A more helpful relationship book would involve teaching women skills to learn how to listen to their own instincts, not the rules according to Dr. Laura. Maybe I should write that... Yeah right, in my "spare" time.
As some of you may notice, and again, by that I mean Michele, I started a separate blog for my Ethics class. Who knows, it may turn out to be more interesting than this one!
xoxo
♥
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