Blush!

I hardly ever watch reality TV, save for a few shows... So You Think You Can Dance, Celebrity Rehab, and American Idol. I think that's pretty much it... until I came across a certain show on Lifetime. It's called Blush: The Search for the Next Great Makeup Artist. I love this show!!! Anyone who knows me knows my love of all things makeup! I would totally rock on this show!!!! Except that I would probably be one of the crazies who got all fired up and fought with the hot mess, train wreck, freak show known as Maxi!

Spinning

I'm not sure why, but after reading my dear friend M's blog for the first time in what seems like ages, I can't stop crying. I miss you, M! So much of what you say I feel like I can relate to; like we share a brain! I wish we were closer to each other! Although now, instead of needing a co-pilot for psycho-girl drive-bys, I just stalk people on myspace :)

I've just been feeling kind of raw lately... Doing therapy is hard. Grad school is hard. I had to go back to therapy (which is recommended for all of us poor grad students). Therapy is hard. Relationships are hard. I am lonely. I am tired of having to do it all alone and all by myself.

My aunt and uncle have abandoned me this year for Thanksgiving, so I am having my very first Thanksgiving at my teeny tiny apartment. I also decided to go visit my dad for Christmas. For the first time in 25 years I will not be spending Thanksgiving or Christmas with my ever dwindling family. I can't decide if this is going to be the most painful or the most cleansing holiday of my life.

I just remembered that I made Tension Tamer tea! Going to drink tea and relax a little... Lots of cooking to do tomorrow!!